Sunday, August 2, 2015

Badai Pasti Berlalu, don't worry...The Storm Will Surely Pass (Album Review)



Hi there, wherever you are. I am frustrated now as I write this post. Why? Because I will write my review of one of the best album of all time and critically the BEST Indonesian album ever yet I have no clue where I can get this gem. Yup, I'm talking about "Badai Pasti Berlalu" or "The Storm Will Surely Pass" album. 

It's actually a movie soundtrack album, named after the 1977 popular movie with the same title. Eros Djarot produced and composed the album with Chrisye and Berlian Hutauruk served as vocalists. It is said that at first, they feared that only die-hard fans of the movie would mind to buy the album. It turned out, however, to be a very successful album and praised as being "monumental". It is indeed monumental. Rolling Stones magazine claimed it to be the best Indonesian music album in history. Carefully crafted, this album gives so much 70's cool jive-pop vibe with some classical music touches. Chrisye's unique vocal soothe everyone that listen to this while Berlian Hutauruk's sopran voice surprisingly nailed the emotions so well and at point. Their vocal collaboration is just a miracle. 

Now let's join me on the song-review ride below:

No. Title Writer(s)/Singer/Length
1. "Pelangi" ("Rainbow") Eros Djarot & Jockie Soerjoprajogo, Chrisye 2:30
Beautiful lyrics about happily being in love, Chrisye sang those emotion perfectly. It's not overrated at all. It's a beautiful happy song with a little orchestra touch in the background. An instant favorite.

2. "Merpati Putih" ("White Dove") Eros Djarot & Yockie Soerjoprajogo Chrisye 2:57
This haunting song will make your heart sink at least a bit. Opened by the classic piano playing, Chrisye superbly showcased his long-taking vocal ability.

3. "Matahari" ("Sun") Eros Djarot & Yockie Soerjoprajogo Berlian Hutauruk 3:25
My favorite. Berlian Hutauruk's voice is just pure gold here. When she hit the (very) high notes at the middle of the song it's just so....ugh, miraculous! Glorious vocal moment! So many divas in this world could hit the high notes in songs yet not many can nail it while bringing a lot emotion like this one. I can repeat this song like..more than 5 times in a row.

4. "Serasa" ("Feels Like") Eros Djarot & Chrisye Chrisye 4:41
Not really my favorite. But this one really fits the movie, with its cool 70's metropolitan vibe. Well, it's a movie soundtrack anyway. What did I expect?

5. "Khayalku" ("My Imagination") Keenan Nasution & Debby Nasution Chrisye & Berlian Hutauruk 3:59
Nice collaboration between Chrisye and Berlian. Chrisye did a brilliant job here paving the way for Berlian's natural sopran voice. 

6. "Angin Malam" ("The Night Wind") Keenan Nasution, Debby Nasution Chrisye 3:53
Another my favorite. Gosh, Chrisye's vocal here is just soooo breath-taking. This song is really indeed breath-taking and I'm not exaggerating at all. Quite minimum music background to showcase the deep emotion Chrisye brought up in the song. It's a beautiful love song about a deep longing. An instant classic.

7. "Merepih Alam" ("Fragile Nature") Eros Djarot & Chrisye Chrisye 4:33
Another favorite!!! Wow, fragile nature. This song is indeed about being fragile in this life. Anyway, we are all created weak. What can we do without love and being loved? If one can live without it, he/she is indeed not a human being. This song makes you ponder about many things. Another credit for Chrisye's vocal. "Bawa aku serta berlayar menuju pantai harapan bersamamu.../take me sailing to the shore of hope with you"

8. "Semusim" ("One Season") Keenan Nasution & Debby Nasution Chrisye & Berlian Hutauruk 3:20
 Not really my favorite but still a good collaboration between those two great vocalists.

 9. "Baju Pengantin" ("Wedding Dress") Eros Djarot & Yockie Soerjoprajogo Chrisye 3:16
 This song sounds almost like some Indonesian national odes, haha. Anyway, this is a very good one also with minimum music background and Chrisye's soothing vocal.

10. "E & C & Y" ("E & C & Y") Eros Djarot, Chrisye, & Yockie Soerjoprajogo Instrumental 3:26 Another 70's metropolitan jive. It's like a background sound to wander around Jakarta in 1970's riding a vespa.

11. "Cintaku" ("My Love") Eros Djarot & Yockie Soerjoprajogo Chrisye 3:56
This greatly popular song is that kinda song to dance along with at the 1970's club, haha. Countless cover versions have been made ever since yet this original version is still unbeatable. 

12. "Badai Pasti Berlalu" ("The Storm Will Surely Pass") Eros Djarot & Yockie Soerjoprajogo Berlian Hutauruk 3:34
This movie and album title is indeed a masterpiece itself. Berlian's singing is superb..."ku tenggelam sudah, ke dalam dekapan, semusim yang lalu, sebelum ku mencapai langkahku yang jauh". Never thought I could love some purely soprano song like this, but I really do.

13. "Merpati Putih" ("White Dove") Eros Djarot & Yockie Soerjoprajogo Instrumental 2:42
This sad yet beautiful closing instrumental is like telling us, the Indonesians, that sadly, we might not get the album as good as this one ever again. I hope not, though.

So far, this is the best audio of this album floating around. Check it out if you're open-minded enough to savor music without knowing the lyrics, at least at first. PS: I am more than willing to translate those beautiful words for anyone who wants it. 

In 1999, this album was re-made and re-release with Chrisye in vocal but no Berlian's anymore. It's Erwin Gutawa who composed the re-make version. I'm not saying that Erwin is any less talented as a composer but still, nothing compares to 1977 original version. Some songs like "Pelangi" and "Cintaku" are also covered many many times but none as magical as the original ones. The frustrating part is that I don't even know if there's an Audio CD version of this monumental album. I browse the internet yet finding almost nothing. I may dig out Jalan Surabaya in near future though, but yeah, I've just spent A LOT of money buying records lately, but I'm just happy :)

Friday, May 1, 2015

INTJ Female....debunked!

 


Okay, okay....finally, after twenty something years living on this planet called earth I found some clues of why I feel different all my life. Just took three different personality tests on three different websites with three different set of questions and ending up with the same consistent result: I am an INTJ. And yes, the description is 99.99% true it becomes quite creepy, thank you.

Despite being said that INTJ is one of the rarest, snobbiest and smartest types of human being out there, it seemed like they are just flocking around the internet - especially in the personality forums or so - talking to each other trying to solve their common problems and mysteries together that they started to seem like anything but rare...but, yeah, look at me. I've been trolling around the internet and real world trying to get to know why I often have much more "lateral" thoughts than others and seemed to be a perfect misfit anywhere and yes, the internet is one of the best ways for me to shout out and display my racing mind while digging many perspectives and ridiculous-ness of others - in order to answer that first question.  Anyway, I know that statistically I am not loud enough on the internet, though. My Twitter followers' numbers remain small and steady, and although I got a "moderate" numbers of likes on my Instagram posts, my followers were again, small and steady in number up to now (yeah, I do not use my personal photo as my profile picture nor reveal my real name on both, and in here. I'm just too introverted, I think. It doesn't really matter who says it but what's being said, I think.). I even deactivated my FB account. It's not that my mind is full of blank. My brain seems to always racing and working.....but my thoughts are too often too jumbled and complicated it is so hard for me to get them articulated in any form. I try to write sometimes if I have time just to try to solve my own mind and problem through my writings. I am, yes, often tired.

The meat of the problem for a less-than-1%-of-total-female-population female INTJ like me is in the romance.While most of my friends have already had several ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends, I stayed single-but-barely-available until my early twenties, when I finally got into a serious relationship. Although I never had any boyfriend before, I felt like I was already figuring out what a relationship is. But when I thought I knew it all already, the problem arose in an escalated way and I felt like an idiot or something. So, lately I found a knowledge-sharing forum filled with INTJs or anyone who's interested in knowing an INTJ. The forum filled with questions to an INTJ, and people are basically throwing their opinions trying to answer them. It's more like an INTJ interview or so. I like to be interviewed because it sometimes opens some doors in my mind that I never realized before or untangles the tangled of it. Hence, I wanna try to answer those INTJ questions randomly here, from a point of view of a strongly-suspected-INTJ girl:

A: Of course! I'm just a human like you all. I do not fall in love easily, yes. In fact, I said yes to my man at the first place because I already set out a simple-yet-fundamental list of criteria that I wanted for a man of my life and he simply fitted those criteria. Hence, it's more that I failed to reject him instead of that I accepted him right away or out of emotional provocation. I fell in love with him slowly as I realized that I never had someone that truly loves me like he does before and the warmth of his caring melted my heart eventually. I'm far from easy to fall in love but when I do, I fall so hard. So, what makes me fall in love? A sincere love from someone that I approve at the first place. 

A: Practically speaking, half a year or so. Hahaha, yes, in my relationship with him I felt so awkward calling him with something that indicates "a couple" or simply saying "I love you" at the earlier phase. It's just that every time I wanted to say "I love you" after he said that, my mind instantly responded with "Oh, really? Do you THINK so?", lol. It's just so silly sometimes. I responded with "me too" instead, many times.

A: I don't know. I am not a man. Next question.

A: I don't really have an idea. My previous man was definitely not an INTJ. I think he's an INTP as he's really like Albert Einstein-type-of-person. Although I'm an INTJ but I'm not a man, so sorry, cannot help you on this.

A: Nah, good question. I think I never met an INTJ man in my life before. 

A: Am not into astrology so I don't know. I don't believe that the answer is "yes", though, for that question.

A: I told you I'm not a man. Aarrgghh...can the question be not gender-based? *at wits end*

A: No, you're definitely not. I am pretty much a religious person. Unlike the popular myth that a religious person is irrational or something, I chose to be a religious ones out of long-rational-analytical processes. You gotta realize and admit that there is not only between rational vs irrational. There is something called "supra-rational", and it's an opposite adjective of irrational, too. Quoting someone: do not only think outside the box. Try to think without the box.

A: It means that we frustrated ourselves in order to become more attractive and have a partner in life. We're just clueless about what we do on that part actually. 

A: Nope. Not. Never. I agree with the INTJ description on many websites out there on this one. An INTJ is too moral and committed to do such thing.

A: Nice question. I question that too. Maybe because I always brutally honest about many things although I don't talk too much. I've never been so good at small talks either so I may seem aloof many times. If I have to say some words or do something, I'd rather to have it done sincerely or I won't bother. It's a curse and a blessing.

A: I've been kinda "accidentally" a freelance consultant. I enjoy this so much as I constantly jump from one project to another, often they are very different from one another. I get bored and feel unchallenged easily in a somewhat constant, highly structured and routine environment. This is nice. I sometimes feel like I'm living a rock star life :p

A: I don't know. I'm trying to get some insights on me, too. That's why I am writing this post and trying to answer these random things.

Well, now I don't know what to do with my life but in the next second I may feel like I'm madly genius about this life. I only know the thing He let me know about. While I, I know nothing, really. But ask me anything, please.

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Weezer : A Discography Review

Now this is a serious project. Not a song review, not even an album review, but an (amateur) discography review, from a point of view of a major fan of Weezer and an erratic music enthusiast as I've always been. To start, I think I need to emphasize that this might be a kind of long post relatively  and I will start mumbling around with everything that is going on in my mind about Weezer when I type this out. So, watch out, guys...but yeah, I'll do it anyway. I think I'll divide Weezer's discography era into three phases marked with different bassist as I feel that their music changed quite radically through the changes of their bass players. Note that all these following description are my personal review so some people might disagree to some points, like we sometimes naturally do.  









 

 

 Phase I ~ An Angry Young Man 


Talking about Weezer is talking about Rivers Cuomo. He's more than just a frontman, a lead singer, and a melody guitarist of Weezer. He's the principal songwriter and composer of almost all Weezer songs so how these songs and sounds evolved within time surely has something to do with how Rivers evolved throughout his life, or at least, throughout his songwriting processes. This band started with the lineups of four young men: Rivers Cuomo (principal songwriter, lead singer, lead guitarist), Patrick Wilson (drummer), Brian Bell (background vocal, guitar), and Matt Sharp (bassist). Before I go on with the album reviews, I have to say that what I really really like from this original lineup is the fact that Matt Sharp was in the bass, and in the band too of course. Maybe he's not as monstrous as Flea or Paul McCartney as a bassist but this guy really share a perfect vibe with the rest of the band and especially with how they sounded. Each notes that he hit really fills the songs perfectly and his sarcasm and cynical manner just add to the perfection of the blend. Therefore, in my opinion, Matt Sharp is the crucial ingredient of the magic potion called Blue and Pinkerton records of Weezer.

Look at Brian's haircut! Maybe this is the only time we saw him like this...and yes, Matt was so cool!

This first phase of Weezer is probably the most favored ones for many Weezer fans. Their self-titled debut album (the so-called Blue Album) released in 1994 soon after the end of Nirvana under the same label as that Rivers' favorite band. It went platinum, the single "Buddy Holly" (funfact: this is actually how I got to know Buddy Holly for the first time although he's like as legendary as Elvis. Sorry, I was just a little 90's kid and lived in another part of this planet ><) spread their sound to the personal computers around the globe through Windows package, and this album just launched Weezer to the main stage of rock music industry. The Blue album got so many magic on its bag. In fact, I thought all songs there were amazing. Each songs give you different chills so it's like a compilation of great songs. I think they might even just had released their greatest hits on the first album, ha! You got a leveraged-version of 1970's power pop sound with "Buddy Holly", a rather depressing yet ridiculously cynical point of view of life with "Undone", a silly-but-true natural possessiveness from a man towards his girl that I bet most men do not want to confess it as brutally-honest as it is in "No One Else", and an-8-minutes-song with handsome portion of instrumental that clearly made it to just another level in "Only in Dreams". However, in my opinion, a major standout from this Blue record is "Say it Ain't So". That song is just a perfect MISFIT to the entire album. It doesn't even sound like any other Weezer songs, ever! Its musical composition is so ingeniously classic. It beats you up mercifully but never take you to the metalhead level. However, the emotion delivered in this song is so strong and vivid and I think this is the best asset of this song. The emotion is delivered perfectly through the lyrics, the way Rivers sang it, and the epic guitar solo. Just quite recently I discovered that this song is kinda autobiographical for Rivers and that he even went as far as stating the real characters' names on that song. Years later after he wrote "Say it Ain't So", I think in 2014, when he was a settled-down man, he looked back on it and said that he was an angry young man.

That angry young man seemed to be a very methodical person as each songs in Weezer's second album seemed to be very carefully chosen and ordered. I remember the first time I heard this album entirely and I was just like "Wow, did I just read a diary? Is it something personal or just a different kind of novel?". Again, only quite later that I found and realized that Rivers initially wanted to make some rock opera for Weezer second album. The abandoned rock opera concept was called "Songs From the Black Hole" but some materials from that project made their way to Pinkerton (1996), Weezer's legendary second album. Anyway, I got a sense that although Rivers abandoned the rock opera project, he might still had an "ordered" storyline concept someway at the back of his head when working on Pinkerton so that we got what we get now. Unfortunately, my first Pinkerton encounter was "The Good Life" music video I watched on MTV Alternative Nation or After School Rock or whatever in the middle of the night some time around early 2000's when I supposed to sleep because I had to wake up early to go to school...and, I don't like it (the video)! So I never really bothered that magical album until several years ago when I was maturing enough to feel sad and lonely (hiks!). I think I wrote quite a lot about how good this record was and how it meant a lot to me personally in weird way. I just want to say that I am really proud for being one of the first people in my country (I strongly predicted so) to get Pinkerton - Deluxe Edition just right after it's been released in the US. That "The Good Life" song was a perfect misfit also for the entire Pinkerton album, in my opinion, but unlike "Say it Ain't So", this one is the bad misfit. It should have been "You Gave Your Love To Me Softly" or "Devotion" or "I Just Threw Out the Love of My Dreams" instead (all were included in the Deluxe Edition). Anyway, this is the last album that features Matt Sharp and as I looked back to their concert way back to the Pinkerton era (thanks to Youtube), I think Matt really added some unique chemistry that completed the band in an awkward yet beautiful way. They are nerds. Cool nerds!

Phase 2 ~ Emotionless or Brainless? Beautiful nonetheless


This might be the shortest phase of Weezer discography according to my division, some kind of "One Hot Minute" version of Weezer. This second phase came after years of hiatus when Rivers, facing the commercial and critics "failure" of his whole-hearted Pinkerton album, was kinda sulking around and decided to make a Weezer record with much less emotion entailed, or even brain entailed. Due to whatever reasons (I truly don't really know the reason...why oh why?), Matt Sharp left Weezer and Mikey Welsh replaced him. The result was the one and only, their second self-titled album, the Green Album (2001). Surprisingly enough, despite the emotionless or brainless approach and the lost of Matt Sharp, this Green record came up as a very refreshing album. I think it sounds so Beatlesque and maybe this is the closest Beatles-like sound Weezer could produce as a rock band in their own right. It tastes like the pre-Revolver Beatles records with a twist of Nirvana :)). Perhaps due to the fact that I'm a major fan of early Beatles and also Nirvana, I love almost all songs in this album and Mikey did a very notable and terrific job in bass. Songs that I don't really like on this record was only "Crab", I always skip that! The album was started and ended by the plea-songs to the girl, by the way, with "Don't Let Go" and "O Girlfriend" respectively, so maybe it's not as brainless as it's campaigned to be. Maybe this album has some concept, too, hehehe (funfact: the "Thank you" section of this album contained Kyoko Ito, Rivers' future wife). The album misfit in my opinion was "Hash Pipe". That's a total brainless song with a catchy tune, in my opinion. Not really my favorite although not bad also, but no problem because that backward was totally eclipsed by one of my most favorite songs of all time, "Island in the Sun". This song makes a perfect wedding song, doesn't it? Anyway, waking up early in the morning, then praying and taking some shower, opening up my working project on my laptop screen accompanied by a cup of tea/coffee/milk/the combination of those three, putting my headset on and playing the Green album from the beginning as the background sound is really one of the perfect ways to start my day. The rain starts pouring gently outside as "Don't Let Go" plays along. Simply bliss. 

Phase 2 era: Mikey Welsh, Rivers Cuomo, Patrick Wilson and Brian Bell 

 

Phase 2.5 ~ Sandwiches Time

Nah, I don't have any idea about the exact lineup on this era. Was Mikey still recording some stuffs with Weezer on this - at least some parts - or no? This era belongs to the abundant ridiculously cool B-Sides or bootlegs or demos or leftovers or whatever of Weezer. They seemed to be sooo productive in Green and Maladroit era that they produced bunch of songs that never made into an album. Sometimes they played in rather small gigs under the name of "Goat Punishment" but as far as I could find out, "Goat Punishment" already featured Scott Shriner on bass.  Anyway, it is said that they "release" those songs to be freely downloaded on the internet, years and years ago. Sadly, living away across the sea from Weezer and surrounded by many many people in my country that are not really into alternative rock music (they are more into "dangdut" and standard pop music, y'know what I mean? Can you guess my nationality now? Good.) as I am, I just found this news out many many years later (circa 2010) and it's no longer available on their website *cries in Bahasa*, but yeah, partly also because I was just maturing enough to put my head surfing the internet to discover more and more about many things, especially my music taste. The songs are now still floating around in the internet and with a little luck or skill or both, you can still grab them. Seriously, because many of them are so good, for me this situation makes me feel like I'm kinda sailing through the ocean and remote islands in the search of buried and hidden treasures :))
For this period, Weezer seemed to be experimental with many weirder and nerd-er sounds that made them seemed to have everything. "Souvenirs, Novelty Party Trick" was the strange song with Russian twist (?) and makes you want to laugh at it because it is ridiculously catchy. Seemed to be influenced by "Island in the Sun" (or vice versa?), "Everybody Wants a Chance To Feel All Alone" will make you wonder why this song never made into an album. As an incarnation of other B-Sides which was "We Go Together", "Little Songs" gives more layered musical arrangement with the piano background that makes you feel wanting to jive around with this marvelous song. "Lullaby" is effing good, "The Organ Player" made me tired of hitting the reply button and the demo version of "Island in the Sun" just gives me a very different feel of that song - perhaps due to Rivers' singing in this demo - but it is equally good with the studio version. "December" the demo version was waaaay better than the Maladroit version, in my opinion and if only I ever have a band, I'd play that version in many gigs and jamming sessions, no matter what instrument I'd play. "Always" was one of the most beautiful love songs ever with a very epic guitar playing...so, don't forget "Sandwiches Time". This is a very significant phase of Weezer. 

Phase 3 ~ Don't worry.......EWBAITE!


Weezer with Scott Shriner, the most rockstar-looking member of Weezer :p 
Welcome on board, Scott Shriner! The longest-time bassist of Weezer so far. Without you, in my opinion, Weezer sound will never be evolved into Weezer nowadays. With you, Weezer has recorded six studio albums so far and one compilation album titled "Death to False Metal". Did I praise you highly? Well, for me, as I wrote back previously, any Weezer records always include some "misfits", but for this phase (not even pointing into a single album), I think the biggest misfit is you! Yes, you, Scott Shriner *evil laugh*! Look at him! While other Weezer members are apparently "nerd" and laid back, Scott looks like as if he's just jumped from a heavy metal band or bodyguards club and that his diets might contain nails and screws while other Weezer members eat salad and drink water, lol (sorry, Scott, peace :p)! :))

How about the music? Hmm...they started it with Maladroit just a year after they released The Green Album. I got an impression that Maladroit is just like the "tails" of the Green as for me musically they sounded from the same "universe". However, as much as I love the Green, I have to be honest: I do not like Maladroit. Only two tracks in Maladroit that I considered as good, which are "Keep Fishin" and "Burndt Jamb". Reminding me of "Getting Better" by The Beatles - both in intro and also lyrically someway - "Keep Fishin" is a pleasant song with a pleasant music video. Meanwhile, "Burndt Jamb" is like another "Say it Ain't So". It doesn't sound like any other Weezer songs but it's so good. Other tracks on Maladroit are just "noises" without any structure or emotion that I could savor. 

However, here comes the best part of this phase...so far, in my opinion. In 2005, Weezer released their fifth studio album called Make Believe. I got to tell you, I love this record! Unlike many die-hard Weezer fans that seemed to only praise their first two albums and despise the rest, I think I am quite rational on this, hehe. Yet, I truly comprehend that if there's something new hit you hard and good, it will set some psychological bar for you that make you want to feel that "good" again - no less and no more - whenever you deal with that "something" again. Hence, although they got some very good stuffs subsequently, Weezer fans will continuously demand the "delusional-good-old-feeling" again and again. Similar things happen to many great bands, I think. The Strokes for example (more on this later, I hope :*). Nah, so, Make Believe is really good yet very different from previous albums. You can sense strong Rick Rubin's style in here. This album offers bigger and more layered sound of Weezer and I could enjoy almost all of the songs in it, with "The Damage in Your Heart" and "Haunt You Everyday" as my most favorite ones (me has kinda different choice with Julian Casablancas on this, I think, as he said he likes "This Is Such A Pity" instead, right, Julian?). Then came another self-titled album in 2008: The Red Album. Again, this album is good, with many new sounds also, and even instrument-switching. In Brian Bell's song, "Thought I Knew", Rivers played the drums and Patrick gives some melodies with electric guitar. That one is my favorite song on that album and I really think that song could become quite popular in my town had it have proper airplay in the radio as it's a perfect song to spend a time with in a car when you're stuck in the crazy traffic jam which happens daily here. "The Angel and The One" gives some very good musical chord and sound progression but I kinda disappointed with the final part - it's anti-climax. But, my most memorable ones will be "Pork and Beans" as it accompanied me writing my undergraduate thesis and whenever I felt stuck like crazy I just then singing this song with my headset on, "Imma do the things that I wanna do...I ain't got a thing to prove to you". Luckily, I was graduated safe and sound. 

After the Red, I became disappointed again and again with Weezer. Yeah, after all, I think I became a regular-mainstream-die-hard-fan-of-Weezer. Raditude is bad. Hurley is even worse. I did give it a try but I think Rivers went too far in experimenting things with Weezer here. I mean, if he wanted to explore the new sound, why didn't he produce a solo album or a side-project album and just make Weezer his creative imprint of alternative rock sound? It will be exactly the same Rivers Cuomo but with different "music personality" and it will be better psychologically for the fans rather than "distorting" the dear love of Weezer on them. I think Rivers might realize this later as he went creating "Scott and Rivers" project with Scott Murphy to display his fondness of Japanese pop culture, maybe. 

This deviation of Weezer sound might be normal for a band, though. Human being is constantly changing. Their life circumstances and feeling and everything changed overtime. However, I think what made many fans became disappointed is that Weezer seemed to lose their hooks, and I do believe that there's nothing more important hook in art creating process rather than emotional hook. There is no art without the heart, I'd say. Somehow they - maybe especially Rivers - lose the emotional hook to create some magical music. I don't say it's a bad thing. Blue record was made by an angry and confused young man, Pinkerton was created from numbers of unrequited and vain love situations, Green was created as a "sulking" sound of disappointment, Make Believe was probably made in time when Rivers tried to clean up many messes on his life and untangle the tangled things and settle down because many songs on that record talk about making peace to anything including himself and Red was made as some of the "protest" to the record label or music industry in general. But then, what can we expect from a 30 or 40-something married man with kid(s) and good financial condition? What we can expect from that kind of guy is a steady sober husband and father that is having his life journey to work on a rather "noiseless" yet precious masterpiece - relative to the music or art that he can launch and scream to the world - which is his family. I personally think that it's totally okay for Rivers or any other settled-down-artists to just stop a little while or just release "small" and totally non-ambitious side projects just to have some fun because it might be the most natural thing they can do in that situation. It's better I guess rather than pushing themselves to release another big project under their big-old-tree that surely gives them inevitable burden of success that it may force them to artificially feel emotional in order to produce some good stuffs. 

For Weezer, that situation is awkwardly seen as the irrational craving of old-Weezer-sound. They responded it with playing many Blue, Pinkerton, and Green songs on their concerts. It never sounded the same, though, with Scott in bass. I don't know why. It's not that Scott was terrible bassist. He even sometimes seemed to overplaying the bass part, in my opinion. So for me the mixture was never perfect for Scott playing the old Weezer songs, even back to early departure of Mikey from Weezer when they played in Camden for example. It's freaking good, but it's not the same, and it's getting worse as they are all aging. Scott will perfectly play his own catalog. To encounter the issue however, Weezer "desperately" release their latest album with a kinda desperate title: Everything Will be Alright in the End with "Back to the Shack" in it. I gave it some try but didn't get the hook yet. The message is clear, though, and I do agree. EWBAITE! 

Tuesday, March 10, 2015

Dream Day Wedding.....short story long



whoaaaaa....hello there, here comes the sun...no, here comes super cheesy topic: yes, my perfect wedding. Who's in this lonely, tiring and cruel world don't want to settle down and get a real life, something that you can build up in any ultimate sense, someone to grow up and grow old together with, and something to look back to with a biggest genuine smile and proud feeling at the end of your life? I don't know who don't want it, honestly. I desperately want it. I need it. 

However, it's not that easy, at least for me. Yes, I'm not the one who can fall in love easily and for me there's a very strict line between falling in love and being someone's great fan. With being a great fan may also come major crush, craving or any form of lust (what?!) but it's not something real. I mean, as much as I'm a fan of Julian Casablancas, Rivers Cuomo (at some point), or whoever random figure out there, I really think I don't love them. They belong to their own wives...and I belong to my future husband. This is the lesson I've learned from having romantic encounter with someone that is kinda "public figure" in his own right. Yes, I'm talking about my relationship with that "phenomenal" winner of the popular game show program on TV. As much as he's been adored by many random teenage girls out there (they're not teenager anymore now, they're turning into hot young females, no?) I just couldn't help but collapsing in laughter everytime I caught some random girls chat with each other on twitter or other socmed about how irresistible he is, how they dream of him as being their boyfriend/husband, or how excited they were when they accidentally met him somewhere on the street or something like that. It's not that I didn't love him. It's just that I've never been one of his fan as much as I love that TV game show program. I don't even have any single picture of him that I take with me. He doesn't like to be famous, though. He thinks he's just a boy who happened to won those US$ 32,000. That's it. 

Long story short, the future is still unknown though for me and him. However, honestly, I never thought a second in my life before that I will end up with someone like him. I mean, he's very much different from the ideas of a man I always thought I will share many connection and spend my life with. I always thought I want a man with deep voice (his is quite deep though, he could even mimic Louis Armstrong, ha!), witty charm, protective behavior towards me, a healthy dose of possessiveness, intelligent (okay, he passed this one), and strong-will. Also, could share music enthusiasm with me, yes this is quite important, though, heehee. All of those factors should together make me think that he's handsome, or hot, or whatever you say it, attractive. 

Is it too much for a dream guy? I don't know, but I don't think that's impossible, though. Anyway, that was the dream guy and this is the dream wedding...I hope this is not too much (finger crossed)! :p

My wedding will have warm and intimate ambiance for all guests and families, including me and my husband. I prefer the buffet to contain only small fraction of main course (you know, the traditional Indonesian wedding buffet which are rice, cooked vegetables and 2-3 kind of cooked meats, usually beef and chicken but I prefer beef and fish instead) but I'd like to have quite a lot of small carts. The carts will include traditional Indonesian ice cream, roti jala and curry, martabak, and any other cute little foods and beverages. The bride and groom will be able to join the party itself and mingle with the guest...and...a live music. I really really want my wedding day to be brightened up by a really warm and nice music, played by our dear friends and relatives (if my future husband was in a band or something like that). I even imagine singing one or two songs together with my dear husband, hehehe. Above all, I'd really love to have a really nice live music in my wedding with which the guests can jive around pleasantly. Here comes my dream playlist (will be updated by any other upcoming ideas and realities, hopefully):

Under control - The Strokes
You're so great - Blur
I will - The Beatles
Island in the sun - Weezer
Karena kamu cuma satu - Naif
etc, etc......(ugh, can't think of anything else right now...any idea?)

and...yes, I really want to sing this song with a man of my life on our wedding day ><
I'll try anything once - Julian Casablancas

very sweeeeeet and endearing song about settling down I guess...just exactly as I always thought about settling down. I pray each day for me to marry a noble man who always love me sincerely, and whom I always love sincerely in return. That's it. No...umm...it would be nice too if my dream wedding can come true, at least the music and groom part, hehehe :p


sit me down, 
shut me up,
I'll calm down...and I'll get along with you :')

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Two Way Monologue

Two years ago...
one afternoon at Salemba, one rare afternoon it was. I met a good old friend. She's a doctor, worked at Salemba at that time, though it's been years since the last time we met. We excited so much meeting each other that we couldn't change a word for a long, awkward, moment, until she said (she's always been an initiator-red), "Ma, how's life??!" and we're like just laughing to each other. Awkwardly, we were exactly (similarly, at least) at the same point in life: having scenes of our close friends getting married, having children, or at least, getting engaged, while when we looked back to ourselves, we were with nobody. We kinda pitied ourselves by joking, laughing, and sharing stories about it and then there came magic words from a doctor, a young female doctor: "Ma, you know, we are now in our most productive age (in biological term, and almost any term) that it gets declining over time since...now". I paused the laughing, and also the joking. She then continued to her story. She said that she met a man. A good ones. Seems came from nowhere just to accompany her. Shortly after that conversation, she updated her facebook profile, putting "in a relationship" status, and couples of photos of that "man" with her. I paused, again.

February, last year...
we met again. That time, she's no longer working at Salemba because she had to assist a hospital in Bandung. She's been so busy (as always, as long as I knew her) that we're almost like dying to see each other again, hehe. She said that she had something great to tell me. I thought it must be about her relationship. It must be about him. We then arranged a quick meeting-up in a mall. We met again and I was right. She will be engaged soon. She seems so happy when I meet her. But I was wrong also. It's not with the man she told me before. That relationship was over. He were not ready for marriage yet, she said. It's totally okay, she said. While the guy that would propose her was a very kind man. She never ever met him before. Even so, when they communicate with each other by phone, she just knew that he's the one. And yes, she's very happy when saying goodbye to me that time. She promised to let me know the progress. We separated. I paused. I didn't go straight home. I wandered myself around at that mall. So crowded at that Saturday, but I just felt the cold...and the rain was pouring down heavily outside all over the city, my house even got an "icy-rain" (I'm serious, that's the truth. Rare atmosphere phenomenon, hehe). It's been a cold, cold, cold, evening...but so soothing.

Several months ago...
she got married! Alhamdulillah. I asked him to go with me to her wedding. I told him that she was a good friend of mine. He agreed, as always. However, he came up to the questions about how to get there that I couldn't answer. Then he couldn't escape from his weekend-working-schedule. Then I ended up texted my friend instead, giving my best wishes upon her marriage. Then I love him even more. Then he loves me even more. Then me and him collide as one walking up the path for us. 

Monday, February 27, 2012

Funny things about life

...is when:

1. I've always wondered how cool it would feel to have a "Cherry Belle-style" body (yeah, you know...height : 165 cm weight: ONLY 40 kg) and cheer up heavenly, while in reality I'm only a girl with a height of 158 cm and weight of NEVER less than 50 kg....but then, when I lose my weight just a little and turned me into a 52-kg-girl, he complained and said that he preferred a chubbier version of me.

2. I took a sneak-peak into others' journals of life and saw how determined they were in achieving their "dream", even if it means that they have to "sacrifice" their personal life, even just for a while. I look to myself and find that I think I never wanna do that kind of sacrifice. I can't be too far away from him, even just for a while.

3. I am happy in the simple things. Just walking around with him through places by public transportation and having a simple meal for two give me more happiness than I've ever known.


Speechless.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Book Whore, I am.


I used to blog and blab and brag about music. That's where this blog got the name for. Actually I also have another side of strong addiction, called literature. I fell in love with books and literatures naturally since I was a child. "Trio Detektif" was my first novel-read and Gulliver's Travel was my first English-novel-read.

Now I fell in love with classic literatures very much since I just wanna think much about world itself. I also love Indonesian classic literatures but since the literatures were developed in this country just around 1920's, there's not much variation in their way of expressing. Hence, several great literatures are enough for me to make an inference.

That is not the case with world classic literatures, of course, since they varied widely from ancient ages to modern time, and from the Persian Gulf to the Japanese tea garden. It's just a wide open ocean of knowledge, ideas, and expressions with the unknown depth. I am practically drawn to it.

I then started to collect books as my personal net worth increasing along the time. Here's the list of the book I intendedly or accidentally have now:
1. Arthur Golden's Memoir of a Geisha
2. Homer's Odyssey
3. Feng Menglong's Ming Dinasty's Stories to warn the world (4 books)
4. Puccini's Madame Butterfly; an Opera Guide
5. Miyamoto Musashi's sword philosophy
6. err... OK, that's too much maybe, let me just get into the things I am currently reading...


a. Homer's Odyssey
b. Musashi's
c. Feng Menglong's
d. Multatuli's Max Havelaar
e. trying to find and reading the rest volume of Cressida Cowell's How to Train Your Dragon
f. Maxim Gorki's
g. a bunch of economic literatures from Easterly's critiques to the conventional growth theory
to Romer's Macroeconomics textbooks and a SEVERAL other bunch of journals...

Okay, I am a food whore, and book is definitely my daily food in this case...and they are becoming crunchier than ever as my examination coming towards me. Good luck to me!