A Reason to Stay

I didn't hear you leave
I wonder how am I still here
and I don't wanna move a thing
it might change my memories

oh, I am what I am
I do what I want
but I can't hide

I won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe, until you're resting here with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot be, until you're resting here with me

Look

Look at the corner of your room, maybe you'll find the dust
Look at some of those photographs, maybe you'll find the emptiness
Look at the stories I love, maybe you'll find out what I'm talking about
Look at the people around you, maybe you'll find out how much they care about you

Look out to your soul sincerely, maybe you'll find the honesty
Look out to me within, maybe you'll find some place that you can fill in

and, look out again to your faith, maybe you'll pray for Him immediately to be with me only...

El Regol

Damn you half Eastern boy
Do it to me every time
Oh, the redhead said you shred the cello
and I'm the jello, baby

You won't talk, won't look won't think of me
I'm an epitome of public enemy
Why you wanna go and do me like that
Come down on the street and dance with me

I'm a lot like you so please, hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me

I'd never ask you to go to JT concert
Coz I know I don't deserve it
How cool is that?
So I went to your room and read your description
"watching NBL and feel a little bit stable" oh yeah
listening to the anything, fall in love all over again

I'm a lot like you so please, hello, I'm here, I'm waiting
I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me

How stupid is it? I can't talk about it
I'm gonna sing about it and make a record of my heart
How stupid is it? Won't you give a minute
Just come up to me and say hello to my heart
How stupid is it? For all I know you see me too
and maybe you just don't know what to do
or maybe you're scared to say "I'm falling for you"

I wish I could get my head out of the sand
Coz I think we'd make a good team
And you'll keep my fingernails clean
but that's just a stupid dream that I won't realize
coz I can't even look in your eyes without shaking, and I'm not faking
I'll bring home the turkey if you bring me home, baby

I'm a lot like you,I'm waiting
I'm good for you and you are good for me

Wait and think...

I think I've found everything that I've been looking for from a man in him...
but, I don't know if he will find me the same way someday...

So, I'll wait for anything that could happen to me regarding this

I don't want to wait for him...I'm not waiting for him.

M.I.S.S

Dear you are...


Yeah...just like I thought before (or does it happen because I HAVE THOUGHT about it before???), he still rules the heart...but I think we're getting more and more separated than before.

Now I don't even know where he is and ooohhh there's a thousand songs that could tell you about what I think about this situation now...

the Lionel Richie's one (he knows the song well)
the Jamie Scott's one (finally that song becomes my REAL soundtrack now, almost each and every words, as I thought before about two years ago)
many Beatles' emotionally sappy songs written by the great John

and the other tearjerkers songs about a heart, hope and mind journey to find something that you really consider as the precious one...something that you don't want to live without, something that you can proud of for yourself, and some place to come back for more for the rest of your life...

and yes, I'm searching for it..I'm on that journey...I'm looking for you, psychically and mentally

but I think I've found you...when I'm feeling down or gloomy, it's you that shed some light on me, though you never realized it...and so, my runaway it's you

...wishing you were here by me, to end this misery...

With hope,
to my little runaway

This Day, Twenty Something Years Ago.......

About a Man

It's a come-and-go feeling...

I think I've never felt this before, but I have had this feeling since forever ago. As the time goes by, I know him more, but as I know him more, I know more that this is not worth to fight for, or even just to daydream about anymore.

And, I think maybe not knowing him is the best thing that could happen to me right now.

Note: I do truly really really hope that the song is not about me and him