Never wanna feel this way..........

For me, this song is not about someone whatsoever, but it's just about the warmest feeling that I've ever felt.

The feeling that makes me wanna smile all the time, and even makes the nights some brighter...I always hold on to that feeling in my darkest day..that feeling is definitely my "patronus" against the "dementors"...haha...

however...I don't think that I ever want to feel that way, but now I really miss it...

hope I can find you again someday, my "patronus"...

This Day, Twenty Something Years Ago.......

About a Man

It's a come-and-go feeling...

I think I've never felt this before, but I have had this feeling since forever ago. As the time goes by, I know him more, but as I know him more, I know more that this is not worth to fight for, or even just to daydream about anymore.

And, I think maybe not knowing him is the best thing that could happen to me right now.

Note: I do truly really really hope that the song is not about me and him

Ouwwhh...

John Frusciate is very lovely when he gets confused,hahaha....
First, he forgot both lyrics and chords. Second, his string was broken but anyway he keeps playing. Well done,Sir...Well done!!!

"Hold me closer Tiny Dancer........"

About the name of this blog...

When starting this blog I just wanted to have some place to speak up my mind, because all of this time, I have a very active mind that often keeps me awake at the time I should be sleeping.

Most of my thoughts about many things around or about me is much much affected by my affection to music. It's like every songs that I love or even any sounds that I've heard of being my soundtrack of life or the soundtrack of the things that I see or feel. But, yeah, maybe most of them is very insignificant and unimportant to most people or to the world in general...and for sure, most of them is far from scientific regarding my academic background,hehe...

I feel like this blog will be not more than a bunch of craps of my mind that is very very unimportant to be published or even be written at all. So, I started to think of the name like "Garbage", "Junk-Blog" or "Trashcanned Me" for this blog. However, as I don't know what I will put later on in this blog, then I started to worry that those "junk" names will understate the importance of my future entries' substances, since this blog could contain anything in the future. Hence, as I feel that music is giving me a life soundtrack in many things about me, then I decided to name this blog after that consideration. But, as I mentioned before, although this blog's name smells like music (haha), some entries will may not tell you about music at all....and,yeah, I've never been very smart so this is the nicest name that I can think of...^^

...an Adorable Man...

As a female who is not a girl anymore (hopefully^^) but still not deserving to be called a woman maybe, I used to go through numbers of rough romantic jungle and ended up analyzing and introspecting myself about what I really look from a man.

My music addiction since my childhood age again had a significant impact on that thought, and John Frusciante was and is one of that significant force. I first adore him from his touching playing on "Scar Tissue". That everlasting song that will go on and on for the rest of my life had proved his fluency in transferring his soul into a beautiful sound. And, yeah, I fell in love with him instantly.

Just before I had entered my graduate school in 2005 I saw RHCP's film while they made their "Blood Sugar" album in Hollywood Mansion and realized that John was more than having a beautiful guitar skill, but also he has a very strong charisma that makes him looks very good looking indeed for me. Since that time, I've been dreaming of finding someone (at least) as beautiful as he is in my upcoming college life, but it never happened.

So, I'm a big fan of John. I adore him not just as one of the best guitarist ever exist in this planet but also as a man in general. I don't know him personally (of course!) but from his guitar playing, his lyrics, and his reaction to great fame and interviews I think he is an extra-humble man. He has an extreme creativity and sensitivity regarding the world around him that I think make him so unique but sometimes also make him misunderstood. In my opinion, he's just a kind of "needy" person sometimes and could be very vulnerable although he has come back strong from his deep depression in his youth.

But anyway, in every songs he writes, in every covers he sings, and in every sounds he makes with guitar I still feel the vulnerability in him. And you know, being vulnerable is sexy for me (What??!! haha)...and so it makes him more adorable for me.

I think if I was meet someone like him then it would be very hard for me not to fall in love with that person. A man like him is just way too irresistable...^^

English Please...

Well, bukannya mau sok bule,hehe...
bukan juga ga nasionalis...(hweh, I'm a FOREVER Indonesian!!!)

but, can anybody help me to make my blogging option served in English??

karena aku bingung dan ga begitu familiar sama kata2 pengaturan, tautan, tata letak, moderasi komentar, edit entri, akunku, dsb....hehe

even in my cell phone I used to change the default language into English just because I go dumb in doing instruction in Bahasa Indonesia,hehehe